Defeating the Enemy

Uh-oh.. I feel a “live” write coming.. Why uh-oh?
Coz I’ve been up for 16 hours.
Coz I drove for 11 of those, and was over-tired before…

I get called upon by 4 people for various reasons
The second wants business advice.
Easy… I do that for fun
Tick.

The next one has marriage issues
But wants to tough it out
maybe they don’t want to move out of
their comfort zone
even if it hurts

They really just need a friend to talk to
To vent

The third is getting over a shattered
And shattering
relationship

They’ve moved on
In hope
Toward a dream they desperately want
For themselves & for their kids

Perhaps with rose-tinted glasses of hope
Too fast..
Maybe?
And they’ve just been broken again

The unmentioned one
Got saved
Saved from an undeserved piece of my bitter tongue
For playing games with life
To hide away the pain
By the other 3 “interrupting” me

So, what’s my point?
Sitting here with my 475th coffee of the day
A Cafe Breve from Seattle
Bought it when I went to buy milk
Never meant to buy it, but
It ambushed me from behind the counter

See, I never got to have supper
Coz I forgot to eat what I bought earlier
Coz when my peeps
God’s peeps mainly, need help
I’m there

Are you still reading?
Coz I’m just letting these words flow..

If it sounds like I wanna be a hero in someone’s eyes I’m sorry
I’m getting to my point soon

See, the Lord uses willing, available vessels
Not perfect ones
They might break a fingernail, after all..
And in the trenches of this corrupt world we live in
Blood will be spilled and hearts will be broken
If you wanna really make a difference
You have to be willing to take
A few bullets yourself

So where do I go for answers to the problems
Theirs
And my own?
For my own sanity, for my peace to be restored?
Coz taking emotional punches for others
drains me too..
My regulars will know the answer is music

I end up hearing lyrics
Or being reminded of them

Let’s start with Dire Straits
Yeah, you heard right
In one of their longest
And most outstandingly musically dramatic pieces
They tell a story of a man who sees the worst parts of life
in

Private Investigation
“It’s a mystery to me, the game commences
For the usual fee
Plus expenses”

“Confidential information, It’s always in a diary
This is my investigation, not a public enquiry
I go looking for my resource
Digging up the dirt
You get to meet all sorts in my line of work”

“Treachery and treason, there’s always an excuse for it
And when I find the reason I still can’t get used to it”
“And what have you got, at the end of the day
What have you got, to take away?
A bottle of whiskey and a new set of lies
Blinds drawn on windows
And a pain behind your eyes”

So
The world of sinners, and the world of Saints,
depending on your point of view
Is the same one

Similar pain
Issues
Hurt and distrust
Lies, suspicion
And blood and guts
And broken hearts

More words, this time from my usual sources

Casting Crowns:
“And though my heart is torn
I will praise YOU
IN THE STORM”

I pray it for them
I pray it for me

The Crowns again:
Yearning for shelter and affection
Searching for a hero to walk in and save the day
In walks Mr Charming, knows just what to say
A momentary lapse of reason
They give it all away..

Why Lord?
Why must he
/she
/we
/I
suffer
*(delete where applicable)

broken trust, trust broken
That was innocently offered
Ripped to shreds
AGAIN

Why Lord?
So why should we put ourselves at risk
Bare our hearts
Open ourselves to being
Abused.
Used.
Confused.

Because YOU did, Jesus!!
Oh Jerusalem, Jerusalem..
You put yourself out there for
A bunch of ingrates
Did you do it by mistake?

No.
You CHOSE to put Your out there
To leave it all on the table

Knowing that it would get stomped on despite your best intentions

Let’s listen to Rend Collective
“I wanna live alive
Don’t wanna live a lie
I wanna live alive
and You make me alive”

“Don’t want to just survive
Be safe, but half alive
There’s danger up ahead
But I’m not running scared
I will risk my heart a thousand times
To feel again”

So, what does Darlene say
She often gets the last word…

“Carrying our burdens, covering our shame
He has overcome
Yes
He has overcome
We will NOT be shaken
We will NOT be moved
Jesus You are here”

“I WILL live
I WILL NOT die
I will declare (You) and lift You high
Christ revealed
And I AM healed
Jesus, you ARE here”

here
in this broken world
In this place of suffering because our hearts too
Have been trampled on by
Those we though we could trust

Those we offered our all to
At least we never got spat upon
Or offered vinegar to quench our thirst
Or had our side pierced by a sword
But were we willing to?

Lord, heal my friends
And if, as I suspect

I will be a vessel to bring them healing so they can be made whole
And move on in joy

And I’m still alone and exhausted by fighting for them

All praise is still yours

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